57. Hate everything.
I hate wanting to bang my head against walls all the time. I hate thinking about banging my head against walls all the time because it gives me a headache. I hate procrastinating. I hate being sad. I hate feeling constricted around my throat and temples. I hate knowing there's delicious food I am not allowed to eat. I hate having to deal with my own problems when I'd much rather help others'. I hate posting about being sad. I'm probably going to delete this once I'm happy. I hate thinking about him. I hate what he's done to me. I hate feeling alone. I hate the porcelain Japanese figure in the garden. I hate running out of tea. I hate my heart suffering. I hate my head.